Regardless of your circumstances, the only right thing to do is beg God for mercy and the strength to obey. Any thoughts of running to idols of the world to get temporary satisfaction or avoid persecution are lies from the devil.
The way is narrow and full of persecution, but there is no other way to life. You will either go down it now or you will go down it later. The longer you wait, the worse the judgment, because you are like the servant who knows his master’s will and does not do it….many stripes await.
(Mar 10:29 NKJV) So Jesus answered and said, “Assuredly, I say to you, there is no one who has left house or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or lands, for My sake and the gospel’s,
(Mar 10:30 NKJV) who shall not receive a hundredfold now in this time—houses and brothers and sisters and mothers and children and lands, with persecutions—and in the age to come, eternal life.